for mononucleosis!
i like that i am his “best friend” and his “girlfriend” simultaneously. But, i do not like being talked to like i am the obligatory friend that really isn’t a friend at all, but rather that person that everyone uses for sex and money. i really should end it. it would make most sense. but i like being wanted. i might test the waters a little longer.
so,
navy
air force
army
coast guard it is!!! and i am actually excited for some reason. i think i could use the discipline and change in my life. plus, i could use the money and experience in the marine sciences for my future endeavors in marine biology (assuming that life folds out in that direction). i mean, it is truly a lovely luxury to have…. being able to choose between two extremely fascinating and challenging occupations. Between the sea and the sky, both frontiers yet to be understood. and either job title comes with the always flattering “oh wow,” remark. ”you must be smart. are there many women in your field of work?” in which i would reply in little modesty, “well, i work with mostly older men of asian descent. but it was really an amazing experience being able to spend 3 months doing research on dark matter at the international space station.” and ” i wasn’t scared, no. it was truly a huge rush being able to dive with such a magnificent creature as the great white shark.” oh yes. i will be quite the conversation starter at thanksgiving dinner, when little miss northwestern is no longer the apple of everyones eye.
perhaps its not good to fantasize a reality that will simply never become true, that of course being that one day i will have the confidence to boast about my accomplishments. in my world, being humble is overrated.
